Life is too short to.. (NaBloPoMo #10)

Life is too short to say no.

Suffering from panic attacks, I find myself saying no the the things I want to do the most by fear that’ll either freak out or be judged.

It sucks. I can’t count how many things I regret of not doing just because I was scared. But I say no anyways. The fear takes over and it doesn’t matter if I know I’ll regret it later. I can’t do it.

I regret not doing that huge ziplane that made you fly over Las Vegas, I regret not kissing that boy I liked just because I panicked when he got too close to me, I regret not dancing at every parties I go to because I’m afraid to be surrounded by too many people looking at me, I regret arriving late at school, on purpose, because I was too afraid to have a panic attack in the middle of the class.

I should say yes, because life is way to short for not doing what you really want to.

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TMI Tag, Get To Know Me.

1: What are you wearing?: PacSun floral printed pants and H&M grey top.

2: Ever been in love? : I don’t think so.

3: Ever had a terrible breakup?: I’ve actually never had a boyfriend so nope.

4: How tall are you?: 1m67 (5’6″”)

5: How much do you weigh?: 47 kg (103 lbs)

6: Any tattoos?: No.

7: Any piercings?: Only my ears are pierced.

8: OTP?: Monchele (Lea Michele and Cory Monteith), Carrie Hope Fletcher and PetesJams, Zalfie (Zoe and Alfie) and I’m going to stop there because the list could go on forever.

9: Favorite Show?: Orange Is The New Black.

10: Favorite bands?: The Pretty Reckless and Jake Bugg (he’s not a band but he’s my favorite artist so..)

11: Something you miss?: Not being afraid of other people’s judgments

12: Favorite song: Out Of The Black by Royal Blood.

13: How old are you?: I’m 16 (and a half) (the half is important)

 14: Zodiac sign?: Taurus.

15: Quality you look for in a partner?: Sweet, funny, shy but not too much.

16: Favorite Quote?: Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

17: Favorite actor?: Ryan Gosling.

18: Favorite color?: Blue.

19: Loud music or soft?: Loud.

20: Where do you go when you’re sad: Take a bath.

21: How long does it take you to shower?: 5 minutes.

22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?: 30 minutes.

23: Ever been in a physical fight?: I’d clearly lose.

24: Turn on?: Being able to have a great conversation.

25: Turn off?: Bragging.

26: The reason I started blogging?: To have a little place to myself on the internet.

27: Fears?: For my plane to crash.

28: Last thing that made you cry?: My bike being stolen.

29: Last time you said you loved someone?: Yesterday, to my mom.

30: Meaning behind your blog’s name?: Drizzle is a reference to Glee, and I liked the sound of Drizzling Drizzle.

31: Last book you read?: Pirandello’s Six Personnageen Quête d’Auteur (Six Characters in Search of an Author)

32: The book you’re currently reading?: How To End Panic Attacks (whoop whoop).

33: Last show you watched?: Scandal.

34: Last person you talked to?: My mom.

35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?: My best friend.

36: Favorite food?: Guacamole and foie gras.

37: Place you want to visit?: South Africa and Norway.

38: Last place you were?: School.

39: Do you have a crush?: Yeah baby!

40: Last time you kissed someone?: Never. Yeah sad, I know!

41: Last time you were insulted?: Probably yesterday by my friends (ironically).

42: Favourite flavour of sweet?: Lemon.

43: What instruments do you play?: I play the flute.

44: Favourite piece of jewelry?: I rarely wear jewelry, so I don’t have any.

45: Last sport you played?: Dancing salsa in PE.

46: Last song you sang?: Let’s Dance To Joy Division by The Wombats.

47: Favourite chat up line?: My name may not be Luna, but I sure know how to Lovegood!

48: Have you ever used it?: Dis mio! No, and I never would!

49: Last time you hung out with anyone?: Yesterday, after school!

50: Who should answer these questions next?: Everybody who reads this! (make sure to comment if you already or plan to do the TMI tag!)

Thank you, I hope you learned a little bit more about me and that you enjoyed it! xx

Let my friendship be. (NaBloPoMo #8)

Change is good, well, change is often good, you may not think at first, but it will be in the long run.

But life should have left my friendship untouched, life should not have let it come apart pieces by pieces. It should have always stay the same, you and I, on the same boat, always happy, or miserable, but only at the same time. School, friends, popularity, time, boys, they should not have come between us.

Little bits of our friendship comes back sometimes, but then vanish as fast as it came back. I feel like you don’t care, you may feel like I don’t care either, but pride touched our friendship, it shouldn’t have.

The other part of our lives that have always been there grew, and began to define ourselves, and we changed, we went into opposites directions. This change was vital for both of us, but why this change had to slowly break what we had?

What we had, this is what should’ve been untouched.

(this is day 8 of the November Writing Challenge)

This is a letter from my phone. (NaBloPoMo #7)

This is a letter from my phone.

Dear Héloise,

As much as I like you, I really need to tell you this. Stop using me every seconds of your life, and start enjoying what’s surrounding you. Who knows what you might be missing while walking in the street, me glued to your hand.

This being said, you’re very entertaining, is there anything a phone likes more than listening to teenagers’ conversations about boys, school, parents and boys (and boys)?! I particularly love your snapchat’s screenshots.

Whenever I’m bored I read all of your old texts and appreciate how much you’ve changed in the past years. I’m super proud of you for not saying “lol” anymore.

You’re not the best phone owner, though.. You hurt me a lot and don’t take good care of me. Don’t mind me being a killjoy, but I’m saying it again: STOP USING ME AS MUCH! You’re waisting our time watching stupid YouTube videos, reading stupid tweets, scrolling for hours through stupid Instagram photos. I’d rather sleep all day, you know.

Have a nice life and know that I’m glad to share it with you (but seriously: keep me in your bag).

Your phone

(this is day 7 of the November Writing Challenge)

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This is a letter to my future child. (NaBloPoMo #6)

This is a letter to my future child.

Hello baby,

I’m sixteen as I’m writing you this letter, and it feels very bizarre to think that I’ll be a mother to a wonderful child one day.

I’ll be your mother, and I’m sure I am really proud to be. I genuinely hope that your father and I are going to be the best parents as we can so you can grow into this big-hearted person that I dream to have raised.

I could give you life advice, but let’s be honest, I’m sixteen, what do I know about life? And even if I did know about it, I’m sure you’re going to take the best out of your upcoming mistakes.

I think that I’ll be a great mom, I’m having a lot of practice with your uncle Noé who is currently two,  you know. He’s probably fifteen while you’re reading this and I cross my fingers for him to be an amazing teenager and a great role-model to you. I love him so much and I can’t even dream about a better baby than him, I don’t know how I could love someone else more than him, but I probably will with you, my wonderful baby girl.

I’m guessing you’re a girl, it seems so natural to me that you are. I may not know you’re father yet, I may do. I hope I don’t and I hope I do.

You’re probably born in Paris or maybe in New York, let’s see what the futur brings us and let’s accept it as it’s going to be.

Love,

Your sixteen years old mother.

(this is day 6 of the November Writing Challenge)

Paris Room Tour ♡

Heyeyeyey!

For once, I cleaned my room so I thought I’d do a little room tour, I’m gonna present you my bedroom at my mom’s apartment. Here’s what you see when you stand at my door.

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When you enter, on your left you see a wall with this Bastille poster I took off in the streets haha, on your right is this little niche in which is this secret secret box and some bits and bobs.

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In front of the door is my desk, as you can see it’s purple and the wall above it is green and it’s amagnetic wall so I put a lot of stuff on there.

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The wall opposite to the Bastille poster is actually a cupboard where I store my clothes.

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    Then, if you stand near the desk and look at your left, you can see this. On the beam is a timeline of our friendship my best friend made me.

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On a pretty table is my make up collection as well as my skincare products.

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Above the table is my “feel good shelf“, on which there are a few treats, little motivational quotes, a candle, my 2014 memory jar and a few bath bombs.

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My room then continues under the roof, so I can’t stand up. Here’s my red record player and a sheepskin with a few pillows, a candle and some fairy lights. I really like to sit there, and read while listenings to some old records.

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Still under the roof is my bed on which my computer is.

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As you may have seen there’s no real windows in my rooms but I do have fanlights, and here’s the vue from one of them.

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 Finally, here is a quick video tour I made, so be sure to check it out!

H&M Crop Tops Haul & How I Wear Them

Hello lovelies!

Today I went shopping at H&M, and as usual I didn’t find what I was looking for, but they were selling crop tops at 4,99€ so I obviously bought some.. Obviously..

So I’m going to show you what I bought and how I’m maybe going to style them!

The first one is this white top with a “cartoon style” watermelon on the front, as you can see it’s really open on the sides so I’ll maybe wear it with my brandy melville kind-of-bralette. My shorts are from H&M too!

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The second crop top I got is this really short stripped top, you really must wear the same Brandy Melville thing I talked about before underneath it because the back is open in a V shape.

My black maxi skirt is also from H&M and I really like it because, even though you can’t see it on the pictures, it’s very flowy and there’s 2 openings, in the Angelina Jolie’s style!

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The next thing I got is the same as the last one but the pattern on it is different.

This short skirt with weird animals on it is from Forever 21.

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And finally, my favorite one, this sunflower patterned shirt, it makes me so happy just to look at it. I styled it with these black and white poka dots pants which I’m in love with, and they’re from Forever 21.

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Okay, so these are all the tops I bought at H&M, I hope you enjoyed this article, and please comment down your favorite outfit!

Love, Héloise

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